Monday, April 25, 2011

I wrote this

(This is kind of from my perspective, but also not. It is partially true, but some things are not true. Anyway.)

There’s this small zoo in my town. It used to be called a fancy name that I no longer remember. It made everything seem more cool and exclusive. It might’ve been a conservatory or something. At seven years old, a big word like that makes everything exciting. But a few years ago they changed the name to make it a zoo. Now I remember. It was a game preserve.

Just in that name, I learned so much. Prior to going there, I didn’t know that you could use the word “game” to describe animals.

Anyway, to get to the GP, you had to drive off onto this inconspicuous road that branched off of a major road. It really looked like someone’s driveway, and for the longest time, there was no sign there, so unless you were looking for it, you would just drive by. They put the sign there when they changed the name, I think.

You’d travel on this series of small, winding roads. The sides were packed with tall trees. I always wondered what kinds of trees they were, because every few minutes they would look different. I was never good at remembering the types of trees.

Supposedly, hidden among that menagerie of trees were buffalo. Or bison. Every single time we went to the GP, my dad would discuss the difference between buffalo and bison with me, yet I still don’t remember. I’m not entirely sure if all of the rumors about the buffalo/bison were true. I don’t know if there are any animals similar to that that live naturally in Pennsylvania.

Another great question was whether the buffalo/bison were wild, or caged in. They weren’t in small cages, obviously. They would’ve been fenced in, so that they couldn’t run away onto the busy highways that seemed so far away. I never really bought the story that my stepmom always told, that they were most definitely fenced in. I never saw any fence. And it wasn’t like the buffalo/bison were wearing collars so that the GP could use an invisible fence like we used for our dogs at home.

After what would seem like an hour of driving, but was probably closer to about twenty minutes as my memories are distorted because I had a perilously short attention span, we would finally reach the gates. I clearly remember the parking lot, and the wooden buildings where you would buy your tickets to get into the GP.

I once went with my YMCA camp to the GP. It was my first time going there with friends instead of my younger cousins, so I was excited. I only really have two distinct memories from that trip. I remember walking through the butterfly garden with my two best camp friends, as well as many others in the group. I always thought that it was a strange name for the garden, because it didn’t attract many butterflies, besides the ugly white ones that were everywhere anyway. All of the flowers mainly attracted bees.

I have always, and still am, terribly afraid of bees. The bees in the butterfly garden were typically the “nice” ones that would die if they stung you, so they would really prefer not to sting you and would rather just fly from flower to flower and collect their pollen so they could make honey. That seemed like an okay goal to me, and I admired those bees for knowing exactly what they wanted to do in life.

I do however think that this time there were mean bees, the ones that are actually evil and just enjoy terrorizing young children. Because as we were walking through the butterfly garden that hot summer day, at least five kids were stung. Two of them were my best friends Corey and Taylor. One of them was this really awful older kid who would pick on me for being ugly, so I was happy that he was stung.

The only other memory I have was eating lunch.

Anyway, the GP had tons of animals, most of them local wildlife. There was this one section with this wolf that most of the time you couldn’t even see, because it was sleeping. It was always exciting to see the wolf.

The GP also had prairie dogs. For a long time, I confused these with meerkats, because I was obsessed with the Animal Planet show Meerkat Manor. They DID look very similar, so it wasn’t my fault. Also, my dad encouraged me to call them meerkats, which just confused me further.

There were llamas/alpacas, birds, otters. The otter exhibit thing was always interesting. It was made out of what looked like white marble but was probably just shiny concrete. The otters would float around on their backs, or swim through the water. We would always sit and watch them right before we were going to leave the GP. We would always talk to someone who worked at the GP and ask them about how certain otters were doing, because we learned their names.

Eventually we would get tired, and make our way to leave. I would be sure to stop by the gift areas, where they would sell stuffed and/or plastic versions of various animals, some of them ones that could be found in the GP. Everything was in these teepees that kind of looked like tents but were most definitely teepees. There was also this giant teepee by a lake. The lake was home to tons of ducks, and you could feed them this food that you paid a quarter for. The giant teepee really smelled on the inside, but I’m pretty sure that was because of my male cousins.

The strangest thing about leaving the GP was that you had to drive in a different direction than you came. There were plenty of winding roads, but they were DIFFERENT winding roads. There were no buffalo/bison here.

We would pass these old brick houses that were really pretty. Eventually we would come by this large open area where you could see a large pocket of trees.

Some people would get out of their cars to stand and look at the trees. They were just normal trees, but they did possess this peculiar beauty that is hard to explain. It was like the open circle was filled with this holy light sent down by God. Even as an atheist, that’s really the only way to describe it. There was this little broken wooden bench by the edge of this massive cliff, and beyond the massive cliff was the pocket of trees.

One year I decided that it was my dream to go here and take a picture of the trees during the autumn season. Even now, I get a little misty eyed thinking of what all of the colors would look like. It’s strange, because I’m a writer, not a photographer. My talent is explaining to someone who has never seen something what it looks like. A photographer shows them. But this phenomenon that doesn’t allow me to use words needs to be photographed.

But now it is a zoo. And there is construction on the road that leads there. You have to take a detour. I pass by the obnoxiously orange construction signs nearly every day, and every once in a while I’ll think about the buffalo/bison and the smelly teepee, and the meerkats that are actually prairie dogs, and the butterfly garden with no butterflies, and the otters, and most importantly the trees that begged to be photographed, and wonder what happened to that magically normal place.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

37 Minutes Left of My Sanity

I keep drinking soda, which I hate.

I keep researching stuff that I should've researched weeks ago, but anyway it's all really interesting and I'm learning a lot.

I still haven't decided on any characters names besides my MC, and I also know that there's going to be a girl named Sarah but I don't know which girl she's going to be.

I'M FREAKING OUT.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Productivity

I'm like deathly sick right now. My voice is completely gone. I'm not any better than I was yesterday. I actually filmed a short video (about 8 seconds long) last night, and I'm still in pain from talking then. That clip was filmed for a secret project of secret which I am forbidden to talk about until Friday(?) when it is released. Then I shall link to the video here on this blog.

Speaking of linking videos, did everyone see this awesome Thoughts From Places video that I uploaded last week:


I have another Thoughts From Places video in the works. I keep getting ideas for it, but right now I have to settle for just writing the script, because the voice over will have to wait until I actually HAVE a voice.

It's weird; now that I'm sick, I have all of these great ideas. I've gotten a good amount of writing done, and have also written THREE SONGS. Yep. I'm going to be working on the music for them today. Again, I have to write the lyrics and music to songs that I can't practice singing because I have no voice with which to sing.

And I just updated my blog two days in a row. I need to become sick much more often.

"I've got massive hammers on my mind. Everyone is friendly, sweet and kind." - Massive Hammers, Baby Rodeo

-Jess

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Vices & Virtues Review

Today, I'm quite sick. Like, it hurts to move sick. But I've been strangely productive today. Three songs have been written, and now this. Yeah.

So, right now, I'm going to review Panic! at the Disco's new album, Vices & Virtues. Specifically, the Deluxe Version available on iTunes. Okay.

I freaking adore this album. I've been a fan of Panic since a little before Pretty. Odd. came out, so I've been looking forward to this album for a long time. But I'm going to try to look past that, and review this album objectively. I'm going to start with the faults.

1. It's really short. I mean, it's not like it's only 10 minutes long. But even in the version that I own with its extra songs, there are only 13 songs. Besides the actual length, it feels very short as well.
2. The lyrics are meh. But really, with the loss of Ryan, who wrote most if not all of their songs, that's to be expected. Even my favorite songs on this album have little to no moments of lyrical brilliance.

And... that's all I can think of, really. Hmm. Now, for the positives! (Which shall not be numbered in a list, but instead explained over several paragraphs. Yep.)


The Ballad of Mona Lisa

I'll admit, I've been fangirling over this song for a while. It's already my second most played song EVER on my iPod. I question the placement of it, however. I've read many reviews that say that it is the best song on the entire album. And although it's certainly not my favorite, I'm inclined to agree. It probably would've been better if they had started out with a less awesome song. Also, it doesn't sound much like any of the other songs, giving a false impression of what the rest of the album will sound like. Anyway, Mona Lisa gets a bit repetitive, but is really, really good anyway. It's definitely the only song I could hear being played on the radio. (8.9/10)

Let's Kill Tonight

On my first listen, this instantly became my favorite song on the album. It isn't anymore, but still. It actually really reminds me of that book series that I really need to get on writing. As opposed to Mona Lisa, this track definitely gives you a view of what everything else will sound like. I adore the chorus, and the orchestral music spread throughout. (9.4/10)

Hurricane

THIS SONG. OHMYGOODNESS. LOVELOVELOVE. This, this is my favorite song on the album. Possibly. Maybe. I don't know. But, but... It's just... So amazingly amazing. Also, I love the You'll dance to anything line, which was the first quote from this album that I tweeted. I don't even know what else to say. (9.8/10)

Memories

I haven't listened to this song much, to be honest. It didn't leave a huge impression on me the first time I listened to it. I just feel like I've heard this all before. Not the music, the story that it's telling. I can definitely see it getting popular, but... It just doesn't do it for me. (7.8/10)

Trade Mistakes

This song starts out with the orchestra that most of the songs end with. Which is intriguing. It ends with the same thing. Interesting. I haven't listened to this song much, either, but unlike with Memories, I can't see why. It's very good. The verses are okay, but I really like the chorus. (9.1/10)

Ready to Go (Get Me Out of my Mind)

lovelovelove. Okay, so maybe lyrically this isn't the best song... And it's repetitive... But... YES. I really, really love this song. It's the basis of... something... that I'm going to talk about at the very end of this blog post. Yeah. (9.7/10)

Always

This is the slowest song on the album. It really reminds me of Pretty. Odd. which isn't necessarily a bad thing. And the song title reminds me of Snape. I'm not a huge fan of this song, and probably won't be listening to it much. (8.4/10)

The Calendar

FNURIGNRENFIOL. The first time I listened to this song, I didn't like it much, but after a few days, I really like it. A lot. I will come back to life/But only for you/Only for you It's really cute, and meaningful, and yeah. Wow, this review is slowly becoming less and less eloquent. (9.6/10)

Sarah Smiles

This is another song that reminds me of Pretty. Odd. but again, not in a bad way. Yet again, I haven't listened to this song much, and I'm not sure why. It's sososo good. Also, if my name was Sarah, I would be squeeing. (9.5/10)

Nearly Witches (Ever Since We Met...)

The French in the beginning just kills me. Gahhhh. This song is so WEIRD. Just amazingly strange. And therefore really reminds me of AFYCSO. Not exactly in sound, but just with its oddity. Woah, oddity is a word? Really? Wow. The little children sing lines from Mona Lisa. I just. Gahhh. (9.4/10)

Stall Me

It's a bonus track, and not a fantastic one at that. I can't find any real reason why I don't like it much, I just don't. I think it's one of those songs that I'll listen to if it comes on shuffle, but I'd never purposely listen to it. (9.1/10)

Oh Glory

angieranfienrwirgnerflertgdsnfhrwetoeqfnuendfweihrf. IUREFINAWEFBOEWFO. THIS FREAKING SONG. This is my favorite song on the album. Yes. It is a bonus track and a demo, but it's by far the best song on the entire album. The falsetto in the bridge kills me. I love it so much. That part of the song was actually stuck in my head all day on Friday. This song is the reason why you need to buy the Deluxe Version. (9.9/10)

Bittersweet
Oh God, this song is amazing. And has my favorite line in it from the entire album: And my favorite place/Is the warm embrace/of holding your hair back in a bathroom stall. LOVE. That line doesn't sound nearly as amazing when you write it out. But just... Just go listen to it. (9.6/10)

Overall Album Rating: 9.3/10

My favorite songs:

-Hurricane
-Oh Glory
-Let's Kill Tonight
-The Calendar

What Songs to Definitely Buy:

-Hurricane
-Oh Glory
-Let's Kill Tonight
-Sarah Smiles
-Nearly Witches (Ever Since We Met...)
-The Ballad of Mona Lisa

By the way, that special announcement thing that I referenced in the review is that I'm going to be writing a musical based on all three of P!atD's albums. I'll be taking part in Script Frenzy this April. I'm kind of freaking out, because I wrote a screenplay last year, and I have no idea how to write a musical. At all. But I must master this art form by Friday. Sigh. I'll be talking more about Screnzy later on in the week.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Character Names are Amazingly Important for the Future

At least for me.

As a writer, I have an appreciation for particularly good names. I've acquired a list of names that I'd love to use somewhere. Most of these names are used for characters, but sometimes I save them for if I ever have any future children.

One name that I really like, but am going to save for if I ever have a daughter, is Claire. As far as actual children go, I think that having names that are easy to pronounce/spell is important. Also, I think that having an older name that is still kind of popular but not really is nice.

I may or may not be writing a new story right now.* I'm liking the names Alastair and Casimir** as far as my MMCs. But I'm considering going with Blanche as the FMC.***

My only problem is that I really like the name Blanche, and might want to actually use it one day. It pretty much fits every requirement that I have. Easy to pronounce. Easy to spell. Recognizable, but older. And, also, apparently, French. I suppose I have a thing for French girl names.

If I use this name for the character, I will never be able to use it for a child, because I'll forever be reminded of the character.

Actually, y'know what...

I have just found an answer to my dilemma. New FMC name = Kaida. It means "little dragon," which is much cooler than "white." Yep.

"Didn't you know that all along you didn't need to hear your song, and if you don't know that then you might as well be dead." -The Muse, Darren Criss

-Jess

*I'm not trying to be mysterious; it is as likely that I will start writing this as it is that I won't.
**Love the names; would never subject an actual child to them.
***Something I just noticed now: I really have a thing for names that start with the first few letters. Don't know why.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

February = Writing/Delete Suckiness Month

Starting this month, I no longer have my music class. I don't despise music, and it was fun when I got to perform "Boxcar Blood" in front of the class. But I really can't learn about opera for too much longer before my head explodes. And now that music is over, I am going to have a free period during 2nd period, which means that I really only have to do my science homework at night.

This free period will also allow me to get writing done. You can't talk to anyone during it, which some people hate. But I like it because that means no one will be bothering me.

I'm excited to start writing again for real, because procrastinating on writing* is just sad.

February is going to be "delete suckiness month" as well. Basically, I'm getting Confirmed on February 24. Then I get officially abandon the Catholic faith, and also stop going to my stupid CCD class every Monday. They get really annoying, because they start at 5:45, and I live pretty far away from where I go, so I have to eat dinner before 4:30. And they we don't even get home until some time between 7:30 and 8:00. So my whole night is just gone, and I still have to write my post for NEA, and then do my homework and that's it. But with that gone, I will have plenty of free time and will hopefully start coming up with interesting themes for NEA.

I'm super excited for February to start!

-Jess

*When it's not NaNoWriMo, that is

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Jess plays the uke!

This post is just an announcement for a new blog* called Jess plays the uke!

The first post just went up, so check it out!

-Jess

*Yes, another one. I'm getting as bad as those YouTubers with millions of channels